Si Tenggang’s Homecoming

Well, I just read from the internet saying that Amazing Race Asia had already started their finalist audition session last Sunday, which means that Nawal and I didn’t made it. So, partly a little bit dissapointed but the fact that over 1000 applicants sent their 3 minutes video, surely means that a lot of better persons are there to be selected.

But then to think back, I take it as something fine, as it’s not the only time I lose for something. So, that’s fine.

In one point, people think how some other people are very lucky to have these and those. Me, myself thinking the same, feeling jealous for one person to get something that I couldn’t get it. But then I realise that we’re all gifted in our own way. The different is maybe how one person show his or her problems to the public.

My father said yesterday (as I’m now having a holiday at home, so lot of story bout my family..), ‘a poor guy always enjoy his meal’. He then told me about his early life with my mom where he had a lot of siblings (still having it) and the food is just not much to be thrown away (because cannot finish, what a waste). So everyone seems to grab as much as they could fastly and they enjoy their meal very much. That’s it, nowaday it seems that there’s a lot of foods, but we’re figuring out what to eat and we don’t really enjoy eating that much, my father added some more.

I guess being in bad position simply means we are a loser. But it’s more visible in job application, competition or pursuing for something - education, love etc. As everybody does, I also have my own losing time. I state some examples that are visible to everyone as I for sure couldn’t reveal everything. I taste a lot of time of losing in competition when I was in school. No wonder I would take a competition seriously but matter of winning is surely not a big matter. As the episode 8 of Season 5 The Apprentice (currently show in America, not yet show in Malaysia) says how one of the team is making ‘losing’ as their habit, I would say that it’s not cool for losing. It’s just a matter of mind whether you want to feel it a good way or bad.

But being a sore loser actually cool sometimes. When I was in school, as I was losing too much, winning once and twice is totally a big memory for me. I still could feel the sweetness winning 2nd place District Poetry Recital competition using poem that I created on my own. I lose the same competition for years as I participate the competition since I was in Form 1. Ha ha.


But as days pass by, I learn there’s a lot more form of losing that I might face. Maybe that’s not much challenge in the school, the form of losing that I face is in the competition, and losing my grandmothers in interval of 6 months.

One thing that I learn about losing is, if I couldn’t have something that I want, it must be because I already been given a lot, but I just took it for granted, and if someone is in the middle to my success, that’s what life is all about. I might fall or I might grab the prize. The obstacle is the middle is what make my life become a blockbuster-movie type of life instead of a fairy tale life. Surely I want to be in Pirate of Carribean than stupid Charlie and The Choc Factory

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