May 04 2006
Downfall of the year
I feel a lil bit relief and my mood was considered as getting better after I log on to friendster, getting 2 testimonials from Shila and Liliq and 2 messages from Aidid (my childhood friend) and Eddy (a girl who sending a message and tell me how cute I am - ha ha, that’s funny but I take it as a compliment).
But you don’t want to know what I felt this morning.
I had my 2nd last paper - Pengenalan Pemodelan (I guess there should be an ‘r’ after Pe).
And it was disastrous. Not really bad actually as I was budgetting to get over 60/100 from this paper and hopefully I got more but that’s not the point. I slept 8 hours but I was still sleepy. I couldn’t even smile and Solehin noticed that I loooked terrible. My hair was undone and I wasn’t being able to answer about my plan after this (graduate) when Adeq asked me while I was hanging in the cafe before exam started.
I was stucked and pause when I was answering exam not because I didn’t understand (coz if I do, I’ll skip to another question or keep trying) but it’s because my mind couldn’t focus. I was thinking of another thing which I suppose not to think about it. Sorry Siti Jubaidah coz I couldn’t be open this time tell what I’ve been thinking about.
My mind was heavy. I am sick mentally !
I pray to God to help me as He’s the only one who is been able to fix my problem this time and always.
