Sep 19 2007
Si Tenggang’s Homecoming
I’m such a baby, I guess. It’s 3.10 am and everyone had sleep. My parent had to get rest before waking up again for sahur while my sis and bro-in-law had to recover to go to school tomorrow. My nephews are sleeping, probably still half excited with the console and DS that I brought back.
Me? I’m in the livi where 3 of my nephews and my sister’s student (who went along to pick me up in Penang Airport) are sleeping. What am I doing?
Bursting into tears like a half matured person. I just talked to Tahir and Chris via Skype and I can’t seems to stop crying. Probably I should be ashamed writing this in my blog, but I just need to let it out or else it will be worst.
I am not sure of why I feel such dragged down. Listening through Daughtry’s song - Home in the aeroplane before made me having teary eyes. Looking at Tahir and Chris’ picture on our last day together in London made me turn like a lil girl again.
And up until this line I’m writing, it has been falling down like a waterfall.
I feel twisted. It’s like I am not appreciating of me being back in Malaysia. It sounded like me wanted to stay in London more.
~~~ Break, wiping up
I don’t really like my London life. It was time where I had gone through hard edge. I was thinking of how hard it is for me to survive on my own, and dealing with very hard assignments and test which I did badly. That is some pointers of how I do not want to relive the life again.
But I guess it also teach me a very important life lessons - I wrote in previous post - and I am proud of what I’ve done although it was not good enough.
But the best part where I didn’t really realize it (until it’s gone) is how interesting my life was when I have friends to cry and laugh together - Tahir and Chris in particular - in the hard time especially.
I’m wiping my cheeks again.
It feels so sad to know that I won’t be able to go through the thing we’ve been through again - going out for food, staying up late for assignment, study and stressing out for test.
Aaah, I don’t know. Perhaps I am very tired. Probably that is what making me feel this way. Perhaps I am too sensitive.
My tear started to stop after last line. I guess I just need few days of mourn and I will be okay.
Am, “Welcome Home”.
Errm, ni antare sindrom2 post-study-disorder.
Aku pun dulu mase abis USM & dh blk Perak takes about 1 week to recover..:)
take a good rest.
& mybe lepas ni I should change ur blog into “Pemblog Tempatan”.:)
p/s: PhD??. (Permanent head Damage).
Izinkan hamba berjerman kejap.
Ich habe jene Art des Gefühls auch, als ich Heim von Deutschland angekommen bin. Ich habe weniger gute Zeit dort aber ich habe so viel nette Erinnerungen und Leute, die mich macht, unterstützen wollen nach Deutschland wieder!!
Oh ya, selamat pulang dan teruskan ibadah puasa di Malaysia terchenta.
Thats normal - even for a guy to feel. Its the memories, not bcos ure sad. Let it go, lama2 ull be fine
okairinasai…
be strong ya…biler baca blog am niey…teringat plak lagu ni…mb, boleh wat video clip ni tok tahir n chris…wiwiwi…(”,)
Vitamin C - Friends Forever
So we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now
‘Cause you don’t have another day
‘Cause we’re moving on and can’t slow it down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
I keep on thinking of the night in June
I didn’t know much of love but it came too soon
And there was me and you when we got real blue
We’d stay at home talking on the telephone
We’d got so excited and get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels…
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever,
We will still be friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything what we learned in school
Still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep - kepp thinking that its not goodbye
Keep on thinking its our time to fly
And this is how it feels…
La la la la la la la…
(We will still be friends forever)
We think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep - kepp thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s our time to fly
Err..people don’t call it ‘Mourn’..that one refers to feeling sad for people who passed away or leave you with heart broken..eh, is it the same thing? ;p