Si Tenggang’s Homecoming

So I kinda sit down on the swing on the porch, looking at the blue sky and I feel like writing something. I ended up humming a melody and here comes the lyrics. Just don’t feel like singing on YouTube, but I think I should post this coz I know I’ll be looking again at this so-called lyrics and smile;)

I’m swinging up
on this sit
Looking at the blue sky
Feeling empty in my heart
as I’m sailing away

Trouble may come
but that’s another matter
staying like this
i wanna live forever

But  you can find, the time tonight

I’m in the ocean of dreams
sailing through to you
looking above
all the sky is blue

i’m gonna leave soon enough
and i will be gone
but in the ocean of dreams
i’m sailing through to you

the birds flying up away
making up all the scene
the sharks are swimming all around me
i kinda feel so fine

Trouble may come
but that’s another matter
staying like this
i wanna live forever

But  you can find, the time tonight

I’m in the ocean of dreams
sailing through to you
looking above
all the sky is blue

i’m gonna leave soon enough
and i will be gone
but in the ocean of dreams
i’m sailing through to you

Enough about the dreadful emotion, at least on the blog. Now I want to answer a question sent by a reader of my blog. She is a stranger and she just suddenly wondered. So here’s the question

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QUESTION:

Slm and hi…

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I jst hapn to stumble upon ur blog. Just curious here. Why did u choose 2 b a teacher??

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Sorry.
It’s quite a personal question. But you seem to be quite enthusiastic
about it (from ur blog). Usually guys r not really into this teacher
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ANSWER:

Salam and hi,

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No problem, it is not a personal question at all. I am all happy to answer such question. Personal question usually revolve around topic such as - relationship, ‘bila nak kawin’, ‘dah ada ke belum’ and the list goes on - and that is the things I hate to answer. In this case, I love to share my thoughts  (or my friend Kak Khalidah will define this ‘aktiviti mengglamorkan diri’).

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Choosing to be a teacher is probably due to a lot of factors. First, it is probably due to the fact that it runs in my blood. Like a warrior son has the skills of fighting, a teacher’s son has the interest to stand in front and talk (or share, but don’t use the latter word coz it’s so lame).

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Family Factor
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My dad was and still a teacher, not a government teacher. He used to taught in ‘dewasa’ class back when the televisions are rare
and just has black and white colour (how come I’m fascinated with my own words?). That was before he join Felda. My sister is a teacher. My uncle is a teacher. My brother in law is a teacher in the same school as my sis. My sister in law teaches in kolej komuniti. My cousins are teachers:-
i- Kak Cik works in SK Haji Omar Tahir
ii - Kak Cik’s husband works in Maktab Perguruan Sultan Abdul Hamid
iii - Abg Teh (Kak Cik’s brother) teaches in Yan
iv - Mas (Kak Cik’s niece, my dua pupu) teaches as well.
v - Abg Shakir is a teacher
vi - Kak Nik (Abg Shakir’s wife, which is my cousin in law) is a teacher

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To make it simpler, I made a chart (oh yes, I have a lot of free time now). Click it to view larger.

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That should conclude how it runs in the family.

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Satisfaction?

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Other than that, the reason of how I am so enthusiastic (quoting your word) is probably come from a joyful moment I had experienced when I teach. It is just a feeling that comes when I look into my students faces and they kinda go like ‘ow… I get it now’, which is really satisfying.

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No praise, no thanks needed. Just pure faces of students understanding it. Some students did have emotionless faces but it is okay. Some are putting on their unnecessary ‘adoring’ faces which creeps me out (I don’t want to elaborate on that).
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Recently I lose my will to go to class as I couldn’t concentrate on preparing my tutorial due to dealing with procedures of going to UK. But still, my Wednesday class reminded me of how fun it is to sit in front and share what I got.
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A realisation of how everyone is not stupid. You just gotta tweak something to make them understand. And to be someone who do the ‘tweaking’, made me feel special. I got some other things that I like to do, but teaching is the one I’m foreseeing myself doing. So that’s why.
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Yeah, those kind of things. It is hard to explain I guess.
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That’s it.

Perak

Aku baru pulang dari Perak. Pergi ke rumah jiran lama di Besout dulu dengan parents aku. Anak dia pun kawan sekolah aku gak (Atun & Ila), so jumpak la balik kawan lama.Atun jer ada. Ila takde sebab tak cuti. Baru jer sampai rumah kul 12.30 tadi.

Semalam, sempat jap gi Taman Hutan Bakau. Tengok-tengok hutan bakau dan monyet-monyet

Selangor

Hari tu lak, aku gi KL. Turun ngan Pidin dan Kak Khalidah. Kitorang gi rumah Kak Khalidah jap kat Selangor, dan aku sempat amik gambar nih:-

Penang

Lega rasanya lepas dah abis kontrak. Aku abis bertugas sandaran pada hari Jumaat lepas. So, sekarang boleh la concentrate untuk 9hb nih. But there’s a lot of interesting things around us that is hardly to miss.
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Gambar kat tangga Kafe Bakti:-

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Kedah

Still missing it:- Pumpkin Race 4.

Current mood: Fine
Ahad malam aku turun KL. Amik surat kat KPT. Nak buat visa, tetiba diorang tutup lak hari Isnin. Isnin petang balik semula ke USM.
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Malam ni (Rabu malam) aku nak turun KL lagi. Hantar surat ke KPT dan buat visa lagi. Esok petang balik semula ke USM sebab ada tutorial hari Jumaat.
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Sekarang dah okey, but I was missing the Pumpkin Racers a lot recently. Probably because the game ended up abruptly, as on Sunday I had to get back to USM. No pep talk about the game with my sis. So, I kinda feel disorientated. I was being sentimental when I was in the bus going to KL (and when I was coming back as well).
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Tears ran down my cheeks when I was in the bus. It’s tougher probably because I’m gonna leave for UK in less than 2 weeks and Pumpkin Race just reminded me of what I’m gonna miss when I departed.
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My friend said, ‘it’s not like you are gonna lose anything when you go to UK’. Well, my heart doesn’t agree.
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[Picture; dalam bas on the way back to USM]

Currently feeling down after Pumpkin Race is ov
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Aku buat Pumpkin Race lagi kat sekolah kak aku. Tahun ini buat 3 hari (sebelum ni Pumpkin Race 1 - Pumpkin Race 3 hanya 2 hari) dan Zakia (debat USM) dan Kak Khalidah (debat USM) pun join sekali. Saja ajak diorang dan bagi diorang jadi mentor untuk bebudak ni untuk hari pertama.
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Kali ni aku buat konsep ‘Battle of the Sexes’. Kumpulan all-boys vs all-girls. Kak Khalidah kena jaga team ‘Dove’, team yang semuanya nama Aishah, manakala Zakia jaga team ‘Sweetheart’.
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Tahun ni aku guna nama-nama brand sebagai nama kumpulan.
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In the end of the day, Pumpkin Race 4 dimenangi oleh Enchanteur. Ranking seperti berikut:-
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1. Enchanteur (girls team)
2. Smarties (boys team)
3. Sweetheart (girls team)
4. Per’l (aka Pearl, girls team)
5. Eveready (boys team)
6. Silky white (girls team)
7. Dashing (boys team)
8. Hotlink (boys team)
9. Energizer (boys team)
10. Koko Krunch (girls team)
11. Sunsilk (Girls Team)
12. Power Root (boys team)
13. 100+ (boys team)
14. Dove (girls team)
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Tahun ni agak berlainan. Ada beberapa insiden kemalangan yang tak berapa best seperti cramp kaki yang agak teruk, lutut terseliuh, dan jugak luka tangan.
Tetapi overall, masih lagi fun seperti selalu. Mahadi, hang takdak so aku tak peduli langsung fasal camera. Suma tu bebudak form 6 yang handle.
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Seperti biasa, lepas abis dari program, mula laa rasa cam tak best. But life has to go on. I’ve been telling them I’m going to come back to do this stuff again next year regardless where I will be. At least I proved it - tahun lepas aku balik 3 minggu dari UK buat Pumpkin Race.
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Here’s the pix:-

Hari Pertama - Game untuk mengumpul mata.

Kak Khalidah dengan anak-anak buah dia.

Hari ketiga: Aku tengah bagi explanation sebelum game.

Group picture lepas final round.

1.22 am. Pretty sleepy. But here’s the vids.

People who cannot see it probably because your university/college block YouTube, go and check out www.solarstreak.com/music
The video is there.

Notice to my students: DON’T SPREAD THIS OUT AMONG YOUR FELLOW COURSEMATES. Thank you (although I pretty much doubt you’re gonna keep it to yourself)

‘Satgi sampai kot’, aku cakap kat ayah aku. Tak fasal-fasal mak bapak aku pun terlibat sama dalam acara menunggu surat aku sampai dari UK. Menurut sistem tracking DHL, dah sampai di Pulau Pinang pada 9.30 pagi hari Jumaat lepas lagi, dan 7 malam lebih, diorang dah set delivery. Mungkin disebabkan cuti Sabtu Ahad, maka tak sampai lagi surat aku.

Aku terus cancel niat nak pergi KL hari ni. Sepatutnya nak turun KL untuk buat visa dan amik surat dari KPT. Dah takleh, maka minggu depan la pulak.

Sejak 1-2 minggu kebelakangan ni, aku duk melepak kat rumah Merbok jer. Pergi USM sehari dua, pastu balik. Ada chance jer balik. Yer laa.. tengah menghitung hari. Saja nak duk lama-lama sikit kat rumah sebelum fly.

Yeah, yeah. The heat is on. And I am not talking about politics in Malaysia coz I’m better talking about reality tv (who’s gonna be in American Idol Final 2, what’s wrong with Survivor, when are they gonna shoot Amazing Race Asia Season 3).

Alhamdulillah, surat tawaran aku dah berstatus tak bersyarat (unconditional). Orang kat Durham dah hantar versi scan melalui email dan hantar melalui pos juga. Yang bestnya sebab aku agak ‘jakun’ dengan sistem pengesanan surat tersebut. Baru jer malam 2 hari lepas aku berbicang dengan bebudak debat fasal e-dagang berkenaan sistem penghantaran pos dsb.

Sebenarnya Pos Malaysia pun ada sistem pengesanan sebegini, tapi yang ni yang DHL punya. Gambar ini ditujukan khas untuk Adli yang meragui sistem pengeposan yang sedia ada sekarang:)

Next, I’m going to Putrajaya and KL - buat visa dah amik surat kat KPT

Setiap kali email baru sampai, aku akan sedikit berdebar. Masih menunggu pengadil aku untuk menghantar email ke Durham. Baru sebentar tadi Dr Jacques Furter, penyelia disertasi aku mengesahkan yang dia telah menghantar email ke Durham sebagai sokongan (perlukan 2 surat sokongan untuk ijazah lanjutan di UK, dan Malaysia, 3 jika mahu ke US).
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Tiba-tiba terasa sedikit lain.
Aku sedang menghitung hari. Sebulan lagi, InsyaAllah jika tidak ada aral. Jika ada aral? Aku rasa aku lebih bersedia menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan. Sekurang-kurangnya itulah yang aku fikirkan. Entah betul entah tidak. (Kenapa blog kali ni bunyi macam cerpen skit?)
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Dua hari lalu. Keputusan pilihan raya. Rahyla (x-KUSTEM, x-UUM Master) tegur aku melalui YM. ‘Sudah tak sabar untuk fly lah tu?’, lebih kurang begitu bunyi ayatnya, mungkin kurang formal daripada yang aku taip.
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‘Taak. Malam ni tengah busy dengan result pilihan raya’. Berjaga aku satu famili menunggu keputusan. Aku bukan orang politik. Aku tidak juga minat politik. Aku bukan pengundi atas pagar kerna aku tahu ideologi politik aku. Cuma aku tidak suka berbincang dengan orang ramai - baik seideologi ataupun tidak.
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Kerana aku rasa aku lebih neutral. Perbualan politik dengan orang yang aku selesa - kawan rapat aku - biasanya akan menyokong dan mempertikai kedua-dua pihak. Baik BN mahupun BA. Bagi aku, sebagai budak debat aku perlu lebih terbuka. Semudah itu. Di akhirnya, 1 pangkah untuk DUN dan 1 pangkah untuk parlimen aku beri kepada yang aku yakini.
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Aku ketawa kecil di dalam hati. Tak sangka pula aku boleh sebegitu serius bila bercakap hal pilihanraya.
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Aku perlu menumpukan perhatian dengan hidup aku. Aku masih di rumah. Pidin menghantar mesej tadi bertanya aku di mana. Masih di rumah sejak Jumaat lepas. Terasa yang aku perlu menghabiskan masa-masa berharga ini dengan famili. Biarpun aku sekadar menghadap komputer riba dan tidur sampai tengah hari. Sebulan lagi…

Last night I was awake late as my family and I wait for the electoral result.

Tonight, I have to stay up a lil bit late to capture some footage for the video I’m editing at the moment. Since I came back to Malaysia, I haven’t publish even one song (except Umbrella Malay Version sung by Ali, but that wasn’t me - so it doesn’t count)

As I like Simple Plan A LOT, so I make a malay version of the 1st on Hitz.fm chart - When I’m Gone.

I dun have much confident in myself a lot these days (in term of singing and movie editing). I dun think it sounded that good. But just for trying out something new - which is using green screen effect in my video editing, I hope that it will be an entertaining video regardless of how my voice sounded like.

So, take a sneak peek down here:)