Si Tenggang’s Homecoming

I play it cool.
Some people around me started to feel a lil bit gloomy. They showed it. Particularly my sister and some friends. I did my poker face, or probably I thought I did.
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2 days more before I depart. I did feel a lil melancholic, so said Abg Tra.
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I had driven through Labu Besar again today as I had to fill up the tank of my car. Mom talked to dad and I couldn’t hear their conversation. As the car move away from that place, I started to tremble silently.
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I keep wondering myself, how come does this Pumpkin Race thing affect me so bad this time around. Last Thursday, I went to the school to bid farewell. Kak Khalidah and Zakia came along.
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Later that night, Zakia sent me a message saying that she had started to miss them. What kind of vibe had been sent by these students? I wonder.
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Hidup, hidup…
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But as I type this current blog, I am cheering up a little bit.
I am stronger than this.
I should remember back the time where I landed in London with no place to stay and no friend waiting.
This time, Mahadi is coming this Friday to meet me (payback of what I did when he landed). I have secure accommodation this time around. I know where to get food and stuff. I don’t have to worry much.
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Or probably because everything is so secured, that is why I am trembling. As I could expect what’s waiting in UK, this mind are not worrying like before and this heart is seeking to be filled…
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Hidup, hidup….

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